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I'm reading this draft after 2 years and now I've quite forgotten what I wanted to write in the first place. But there is a new thought. I try not to appear very religious and some times even cover up my last vestiges of religious practice, especially in front of non- Indians. My husband also does the same, for e.g. he would totally refuse to hang round the mirror of our car the red thread with a dollar that the Pujari gave after car puja, citing the reason that his white colleagues often travel with him and he is not comfortable with such a display of religion. I too sometimes feel the same way and wondered what is driving this behaviour. I think this is because most of the super religious people I happened to meet so far came across as quite dogmatic, a bit superstitious and most importantly for me, very closed and not open to discussion, not opening to questioning on certain topics. I don't want to be that someone. I'm the sort who admires how Reform came about in Christianity - by questioning how blood can turn into wine; how Hinduism mostly moved away from animal slaughter at temples and enshrined vegetarianism - by imbibing the then new principles of non-violence that Buddhism and Jainism brought to fore. And I am the sort who thinks it a huge contradiction that moderate Muslims should stand by very harsh, explicitly violence-preaching phrases in Quran, saying it is misinterpreted . Isn't it time for reform in Islam too?